Until Now
“Until Now” is a celebration of queer joy and the transformative power of a new connection. The song captures the messy, complicated beginnings of a new relationship evolving into beautiful. It’s about those small, simple moments that feel idyllic and profound, defying expectations and rewriting our personal narratives.
There is a seismic shift that comes with welcoming in transformative queer joy and connection—the way logic and defenses crumble as perspectives shift. This song playfully acknowledges the quirks and clunkiness of new beginnings while emphasizing the joy of feeling truly, deeply known.
Recording this track was both exciting and nerve-wracking. As one of the most in-depth arrangements, I had a very specific vision of what I wanted and was worried it wouldn’t turn out as I’d hoped. Still, despite some challenges, the final recording turned out even more vibrant and energetic than I’d let myself. To me, “Until Now” reclaims the fairy tale romance often denied to LGBTQIA+ folks, celebrating a love that challenges conventions and transforms how we see the world.
Music & Lyrics: Adam Greczkowski
Arrangement: Adam Greczkowski, Daniel M. Baker
Engineer: Charlie Pilzer
Vocals: Adam Greczkowski
Backing Vocals: Stephen Naimoli, Marcos Sastre, Gregory Stowers, William G. Stroupe II
Ukulele: Adam Greczkowski
Guitar: Daniel M. Baker
Piano: Garrett Sward
Trumpet: Cole Jaconski
Drums: Jack Zornado
Bass: Daniel M. Baker
Producers: Adam Greczkowski, Emily Zornado, Jack Zornando
CREDITS
Until Now
I never smoke cigarettes
But now I’m thinking ‘bout killing my lungs
Just as a throwback to when
You were embarrassed
That I tasted one on your tongue
You said, I just do it sometimes
And I mocked you as a man of science
With your little act of self-defiance
I said, I hate the way they taste
And then I kissed you anyway
And someday later in the car
I got all depressed
We cried about the mess
And in that moment you confessed
I’ve never felt like this
I’ve never had this fairy tale feeling
How can you feel this good?
In all of my years
I’ve never been swept off my feet
I never learned to speak French
Its numbers didn’t make sense
But now I’m thinking ‘bout trying again
Just ‘cause I know that those shapes
Are some that your mouth might make
Somewhere that isn’t here
And I need you to not be not here
And isn’t it bizarre?
We got all upset
And then we got undressed
It’s electric, I’m obsessed
And you said
I’ve never felt like this
I’ve never had this fairy tale feeling
How can you feel this good?
In all of my years
I’ve never been swept off my feet
Until now
Life made sense
Until now
I had defenses
Now I’m desperate to know
Why we can’t let this go
When it would be common sense
But I’ve never felt like this
I’ve never had this fairy tale feeling
How can you feel this good?
In all of my years, I’ve never been swept off my feet
Oh, I’ve never felt like this
No, I’ve never had this fairy tale feeling
How can you feel this good?
In all of my years
I’ve never been swept off my feet
Until now